a new life...a paradise

One " delicate" day

2008-02-21T11:45:00.000-08:00

Wakin up mornin`, ...takin a cab, he was with me -my half of course, he's always with me , specially in delicate moments.:) .He came with me to the doctor's lab.
I had to make some "stuff", we had wait 5:30 hours....till doc took me .
I have some digestive probl. and I need treatment.
I dont like talk about this , but it's a pr from my life...is what i have to fight with.
I'll be fine ........
I feel tired and bored .......<3>

Drawin ....art .....and poetry

2008-02-18T12:40:00.000-08:00

This are 3 large beautiful topics. Im not an artist or a poet , i just love kind beautiful things , in this things I have my belives.
Sounds of nature, sounds or pencil, sound of smile , sound of his heart beatin next to me , sound of clouds, sounds of sea, of whole ground, imagine it !
Special things , are beein our passion ........we have to find a way to get in touch with ........
Now he's callin me ladybugg ........how can I jump from file to file ,changin topics......i think im havin .....a sallat inside my brain , or im confused .............this is the sign of gettin haotiq.
I must handle myself , i dont hate ever........even there are things i really dont like .....or see or touch ...i dont use " Hate" word......... :) in a past time .....i was a diffrent girl .......I tryed to be appreciate by all friends......... i made them belive in me ......... i was a sweet nice company........ i was confident in myself............. and now ............ lemon taste .where is that girl ? She souldn't leave so soon , and leave me ...without my armure....... i think she didn' t left .....she's just hidden
Drawin is one of my passion ....... i lov fashion ......... and accesories ....... and cute stuff..........
Art is amazing if u discover it;s secret beauty ............anything can be can mean art.............it's about creativity , imagination , simply - letin urself easy dreamin
Poetry ...._-- I almost remember how stacked i was while writin a poem ........ I got inspired by - all things around me............nature, animals, family , sense, dreams, feelings ...........:) :X

Pink Guardian

2008-02-18T12:12:00.000-08:00

What a story .......... ummmmm Sunt inca un copil , adolescentza ...ma gandesc la subiectul asta ........................ Ma simt atat de ciudat , parca nu ash fi aici ,eu .........ma simt ratacita ..printre ganduri ...si atat de lost .......nu mai cunosc pe nimeni nu am sentimente .........da stiu nu e nik serios , doar o stare trecatoare - de moment ..........maine va fi altfel ......................trebuie doar sa ma gandesc la ceva frumos .................si apoi sa inchid ochii sa adorm.
De unde vin atatea intrebari ............... de ce conteaza atatea pt mine , de ce ma alearga timpul ..........de ce ma tem ? cine e alaturi de mine .........? POi sigur God e ...........si ingerul meu roz pazitor...si mai e ..............el - prietenul meu ............ incearca sa ma scoata din starea asta si tocmai spunea ca ::: """ vreau sa fi o bibbi-ca fericita , alte bibbici nu mai sunt , asa ca tu esti unica bibbica si nu ar fi frumos ca tocmai singura bibbica sa se simta rau ...---esti frumoasa, vreau sa nu te plangi de nimic , si daca ea vrea pe o insula o sa lupte pt asta , si nu trebuie sa te simti rau deloc , niciodata ....<3 u bibbi ..........""""""""""""""" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ umm ....asa prieten dragutz am eu , si sincer pot spune ca a reusit sa mai diminueze din "rautatzile" care ma faceau sad ... E minunat , sunt norocoasa ca ma place tocmai pe mine , am nevoie de atentia si incurajarile lui si mereu da dovada ca se descurca , ca ma intelege si ca ma place<3
IUbirea salveaza vieti :X and lost soul :X
Uneori e mai frumos sa daruiesti decat sa primesti , si sa aduci fericire decat sa o primesti .
Viata e interesanta !!!

Inspiration in night <<<<>>>>

2008-02-18T10:36:00.000-08:00

Then a shiver hit my body , I started to let myself dreamin`....like all the good ideas imagination from each persone ...came into my head... ---that means out of control......................... images , scene after scene in my head.....a movie ruled.....all this time I felt lost .

What is with me , is this the world i live in ? I thoght so many years ,it was diffrent . Im so small , i can't fight now , im not ready , i must get used with this whole society.
I m thinkin over and over again ....about : me but in other situation , liek gettin a new personality of my life....seein livin it ..with other eyes , in other perspective ............ why if im a jungle wild animal ( human instinct ...are only few :P inside of me ) :)) anyway i like to think that i/'m just normal ....but everytime a sitation get to high for me .....i start to go back ...to think deeply ....about strange thing.......im makin my life complicated ........ so were we ...........yeah .....wildness.......... means also purity, nature, another side of life.

I still dream ...about the day when i'll leave this city ..:)
It is far ....or close --------------------------------- the moment
??????????????????????????? God knows !
He's the only one ..that understands any person , creature, he knows are wishes, our dreams, our thoughts...........
Im not rea;;y convinced that ..im makin the right decission about me leavin ...........but i prefer to think there I belong

Did my dream will come true ??? I'll be happy and pleased ? I'll find that inner echilibre ..? I hope so ..

~LoVe swEeT HapPy Day <<<333 ~~~~~

2008-02-17T07:05:00.000-08:00

Today i'll see my lovely boyfriend , after a week ........... I missed him so much , he means a lot for me . I love each way he make me vibe , he is like an open world of love for me .

~~~~ <3 style="color: rgb(51, 51, 153);">Baby I need you every moment by my side ........... <3>

~ Cold OuTsiDe ~*******

2008-02-17T03:18:00.001-08:00

Do u ever feel like breakin down ....do u ever feel out of place ....like somehow u just dont belong and no one understands you ...Do u ever wanna runaway ? Do u wanna be somebody else ? Are u stuck inside a world you hate ? ..... U dont know ehat is like to be like me :: to be hurt . to feel lost to be left out in the dark nand no one';s there to save u ......No u dont know what is like ....to be like me ......__ simple plan _WElcome To mY LiFe <3>

Im ready for a new start , a new adventure ........no matter how long it takes......Im gonna be ready ...for the journey of my life...im gonna rock IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm backkk .....

2008-02-17T02:14:00.000-08:00

~~~ I don't know what happend ...why I wasn't here .... i missed for a while ..... hmmm ...My life changed in some sides....

Do i have to start my story ..? we express our feelings in words ....... in actions , in any way .
Interesting is this life . SO im wonderin if ever i'll be in that sweet romantic place......... where i'll be happy .
~~~""We are the people , we live on Earth - planet ,we have a whole stuff to do here , first : we are born from our future parent's love, happily, then we passed throught years , we are 5 then 10 , then 18 ......:) we grow up , we have a lot of memories, we have a uniq life, a uniq appearence and personality......... we do mistakes , we lie , we learn , we are happy and sad , we travel , we sleep ,we eat , we go to school , then to college .

we depends on our parents.....we are in some way ...their mirror ......
what else matters.............. why it have to be like that .. ? I dont have to ask , the answer is simple : cuz it our human instinct to be .
I'm a usual girl with good and bad days , with joy and pain , but i follow a title : I promiss to myself to become the perfect woman ....and now its not the time to get confused or angry : perfect can be anyone ..:) here is my theory: some person think about me im a gr8 special ....kind person , maybe for them i might be perfect ............... in this sick lost world... " perfect word is relative ...............it can be understand diffrent from ppl to ppl ......:) . Somebody told me im perfect ......but i dont think so ...i dont even think about this ..... i kow im too young to be ..:) i made a longg..list ..how a perfect woman should be ....:XXXX here are some ex :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: :XXX:XX:XX <333>

Sunday .............

2007-06-10T11:46:00.000-07:00

yeah ...week'end..km boring..:( damn ....but nevermind ieri m-am distrat mai bine ............ am shi uitat sa mai scriu in asta ... nu prea am invatzat ......parca nu aveam chef de nik ...

~~~ macar de eram k tipa din imagine pe o insula ( dreamu meu `..) .....poate ea e supy k nu are iubit.. :( ohhhh This life This love This world !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crazy .....wired ....

...O dimineatza nu tocmai placuta ...:(

2007-06-06T23:11:00.000-07:00

Spun asta ..pt k ... tocmai ieri am primit ink un pestisor mic black carass`.....de la alex ( bf.) shi ...azi a murit :( ....... ma gandesc k nu i-a placut noua lui " casautz " ...asha k mai am doar unul ...- care se simte bine deocamdata ............... hmmm ..la 11 merg la ore de mate ............ce zi ! :( .... de ceva vreme nik nu mai e cum mi-as fi dorit .... am atatea ganduri , vise , dorinte ....dar cine mi le v-a indeplini ...? ramane o enigma ........nu mai am rabdare .........sunt curioasa....pe ce drum voi apuca........cum se va schimba viata mea........voi avea o vacanta placuta asha cum mi-am dorit ? ........raspunsu .....va veni pe parcurs.... de azi ( 7 iunie ) ...intr-o luna ....voi afla o parte din raspunsurile pt gandurile ce ma urmaresc..........ma bucur k macar alex...e on my side...shi e un tip just perfect ....:X

Monday ......is the day ...

2007-06-04T08:44:00.000-07:00

O zi ......obisnuita ..exact cum nu imi place mie ...dar ce sa fac ..... in situatia asta chiar nu pot schimba nik ....:) sunt prea " prinsa " cu invatzatu`.......tocmai mi-am facut un mic programel ....care va functziona de maine <3>

It can be Paradise....here ?

2007-06-03T10:15:00.000-07:00

I don't know .....why this world is made like that .......what are we ? ...... native ,sensitive diffrent creatures.....we are happy , sad ...we cry we smile , we do good and bad things ..... we pray to our God ......... if he create this world........we are free to chose where we want to life ............ well .....i want in Paradise.......... i know it exist ....i can feel this ...4 everyone of us Paradise is a diffrent place ...( for one is city life ,,,,or for others country-side....... well 4 me is called : Island , there i wish to be one day ....is like that u wake up in the mornin`....u wish to have that view........the sand ....palm trees....hmmm i mean where are that places ? <3 i will find out one day ..im sure